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Health Issues Again + Depression

UPDATE:
Well, I've seen my doctor about it, and basically, she has no clue what it is. And she doesn't really care, it seems. She said that if I end up having trouble getting pregnant when I decide that the time has come some day, then we will look into it further.

Great. That is why one studies medicine.

And the universe must be sending me messages again, for I've come with THE. WORST. COLD. EVER. (Okay, I am exaggerating a bit, I admit. Every cold is the worst one while you're sick.)

So, I'm sneezing all over the place and suffocating due to coughing. XD

I have a lot of things to do this weekend, but I hope to draw a bit too, hopefully work on commissions again. *crosses fingers* Stupid school drives me nuts.

I have a little Halloween gift for you guys, something different from what I usually do, but I will probably post that one tomorrow or on Sunday.

And plans for Halloween? I'm interested. ^^ Share!

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Good news: it is not my arm/shoulder.
Bad news: it is a gynecological problem

I am not yet sure what it is. Right now, it could be anything. But it seems that the most likely diagnosis is endometriosis (if you don't know what it is, please google it). I hope that's not it.

Either way, it is making me very depressed again. Every time things start to look up, something goes wrong again.

I feel like drawing some Princess Serenity. She always makes me happier.


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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
This is my third doctor already (changed the first one because I was unhappy with how she worked, the second one was quite good but I had to switch to the third one since I moved to another country), so my experience shows me that it is super-difficult to find a good one. ^^
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Nemesis12 Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2010
I'm going to a party on Sunday and I may or may not do something with my parents tomorrow.
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Have fun! :D
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JLDragonfly Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2010  Professional Traditional Artist
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
:glomp:
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Kalisama Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2010   Digital Artist
Oh my gosh! I'm so sorry to hear that. I do hope you get an answer and that it's not as bad as it seems. We will keep you in our thoughts. ♥
Try not to dwell on it too much or you'll just end up making yourself feel worse. *knows all too well* I know that's easier said than done...
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug: Wanna cuddle a bit? ^^
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Kalisama Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2010   Digital Artist
:hug:
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inkscribble Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010
Oh gosh. Well, at least it's not entirely untreatable, even if it IS that. Meantime, I'd reccomend a large dose of Cardcaptor Sakura.

Feel better! Best wishes! :hug:
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
LOL Thanks for the recommendation. :D
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inkscribble Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010
That and Freakazoid, if you're at all into super goofy American cartoons. :giggle: I laughed so hard I cried in a few places the last time I re-watched it. It's brilliant.
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh, gosh, haven't watched Freakazoid in years! XD
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inkscribble Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010
It's totally the best. I nearly died the first time I saw the Handman episode. Homigosh. :D
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Haha, true! XD
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PaperIz Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm so sorry you're feeling bad again!:-( You have all my prayers ♥ :hug:
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug:
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elila Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh no, that's no good! You need to be happy and healthy! I'm going to have to sick Peach on you until you get well and cheerful! :hug: Life's really not giving you a break, is it? ^^;

Please stay strong, we're rooting for you! :)
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
*hug* Thanks, dear. Sadly, my visit to the doctor today was pretty useless. She doesn't know what it is, and it might be endometriosis (since it is not always visible on the ultrasound), but she doesn't think I need to get the laparoscopy to know for sure. She said something which really pissed me off: "If you end up having trouble getting pregnant when you decide to give it a try, then we will look." By then it might as well be too late. :(
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elila Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
That's horrible, I can't believe she said that! :angered: Isn't there somewhere you could get it checked up with a Doctor who know what she's doing? I don't know what kind of health insurance and such you have, but it hardly seems like the kind of thing that should just go undetected and untreated.
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Ah, I don't know. I could go see another doctor, but somehow I doubt that would bring much. The thing with health insurance in Germany is that you have the "general" insurance (which everyone needs to have) and "private" (which is for those who can afford it). The "general" insurance covers for most of the necessary costs, BUT the doctors are often told to only prescribe something in case of utter need, so to say.
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elila Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Aah, right, I see. I'm pretty well insured though my job, so I'm really lucky like that. I still say something like that should count as necessary, if you ask me. ^^;
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
What COUNTS as necessary and what doctors will prescribe are, sadly, two different things around here sometimes.
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elila Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
That's sadly true just about all over the world, it seems. :nod:
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Susaleena Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I really hope that is not what you have >.<
Please cheer up because the immune system is weakened by depression or sorrow =[
Also, lately I was hospitalized for stomach virus so I know how it must feel to be sad over a medical condition...I get hospitalized a lot for my bad health and it makes me sad each time but I know that being happy is very important because people around you don't want to see you frown so please cheer up and know that lots of people care about you. Even here on DA!:heart:
I hope things will turn out well:aww:
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you, dear. :hug: I am generally a pessimist, so it is difficult for me to just cheer up. :XD: I do try to distract myself by drawing...
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Nemesis12 Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2010
I hope that it isn't that either.
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks. :hug:
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Nemesis12 Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010
You're welcome.
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radiant-suzuka Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2010  Professional General Artist
Poor silver, you're not having much luck are you? :( I hope all goes well and that you get better soon hun :hug:
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you, sweetie. :hug:
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SaturnBunny89 Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2010
:hug: Always thinking of you dear...
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
:glomp:
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Tsuki-Tsubasa Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2010
I went through the exact same thing. I've had a history of ovarian cysts since I was very young and for almost the past 2 years was having the exact same pain in the lower right side. I went to a million different Dr's and one I saw in January (an OBGYN) said that she was 99% certain it was endometriosis and set up a surgery date to remove it. I had been told before by Dr's that they suspected I had it but was too scared to have the laproscopy done. I had also gotten to the point of only stopping my period for 2-3 days and then it would start and be heavy and super painful for almost a whole month. I had become very anemic due to this. In May I had my surgery and she did find endometriosis behind the uterus. She removed it and also did a d&c at the same time because I had a lot of tissue built up from it being so messed up down there. Since then the pain has been gone and my periods are back to normal. :) It took about 2 months for me to get back on a regular cycle. (I missed the first month and a half.) The recovery was super quick too! Nothing at all like when I had my gallbladder out. Within 3 days I felt fine. I was up and about. Even the first day all I took for pain was very weak pain killers. Feel free to send me a note or ask here if you have any questions about the procedure or recovery and such. I'd be glad to help if I can. :)
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
I will wait up to hear what my doctor has to say, and if it turns out to be endometriosis (or if my doctor continues to think it might be that), I just might contact you. ^^
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This sucks so badly :( I hope it won't be this disease in the end and that you will get a better diagnosis or start feeling better. Psychologically, too. Draw some Serenity then ^^ :tighthug: Chin up, we love you :love:
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
:glomp: Thank you, sweetie. How have you been doing?
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Ryoko-san18 Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2010  Professional General Artist
Oh man, du hast aber auch immer ein Pech ;_; Ein unglück jagt das nächste... morgen bekommste das Ergebnis?? Hoffentlich kann man das ohne, dass das Schlimmste passieren könnte, bekämpfen >_____<
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Na ja, morgen gehe ich erstmal wieder hin, ob ich aber auch eine Diagnose bekomme, weiß ich nicht... Das schlimmste wäre echt, man sagt mir einfach, man wisse nicht, was es ist. :(
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Ryoko-san18 Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Professional General Artist
>__< Hast du schon ne Nachricht?
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Na ja. Ich war heute da, und sie meinte - wie befürchtet - sie wisse nicht, was es ist. Auf dem Ultraschall war nichts zu sehen, also sind es keine Zysten oder so was. Endometriose ist zwar immer noch nicht ausgeschlossen, da sie oft auf dem Ultraschall nicht sichtbar ist, aber meine Ärztin meinte: "Es gibt ja noch Zeit... Falls ich Schwiriegkeiten habe, schwanger zu werden, wenn ich mich für ein Kind entschieden habe, dann können wir die Bauchspiegelung machen."

Das einzige Problemchen ist, falls es tatsächlich Endometriose sein sollte, dann könnte sie bis dahin so weit fortgeschritten sein, dass ich gar nicht mehr schwanger werden kann. -_-;

Ärzte.
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Ryoko-san18 Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Professional General Artist
Argh, das ist Mist ._. Man will doch vorher wissen, wo man dran ist und nicht erst, wenn das echte Probleme macht >___< Ich wusst ja nichtmal, dass es die Krankheit gibt... aber ich bin wohl auch gefährdet >_>"
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Na ja, technisch gesehen ist jede Frau gefährdet, da die Krankheit relativ häufig vorkommt (8-15% aller Frauen haben das), und sie ist sehr schwer zu diagnostizieren. Das Gute daran ist, dass die Krankheit nicht bei allen große Probleme (oder gar welche) verursacht. Also mach dir nicht zu viele Gedanken darüber.
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Ryoko-san18 Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010  Professional General Artist
Hrm, oki .__."
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Tetiel Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
Well the only thing you can do is get to an OB/GYN. They'll probably do an ultrasound and figure things out. From what I understand, both fibroids and endo can be seen with an internal ultrasound so they don't always need to do exploratory surgery. I had a friend who had them. She eventually had to get a hysterectomy, but she was able to wait to have another child before she had the surgery.

Laparoscopy isn't that bad, though. I had to have it to remove an ovarian cyst and my appendix at the same time. I was bedridden for about two days because it really hurt to move my stomach and get up, but compared to other surgeries, the recovery time is REALLY quick and I only have two tiny inch long scars below the bikini line.

I hope it's nothing serious, but I don't know how bad the pain is for you. It must be pretty terrible if you think it's that :( Just keep medicated with Advil or something until you can see a doctor.
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
I am seeing my gynecologist tomorrow, and I am a bit scared that she will simply say that she doesn't know what it is. Ya know, that would be the worst. I have had this pain in the lower right area of my stomach on and off for two years now, and it kept getting worse slowly. Now it is REALLY bad when I get my period (I apologize if this is too much details. ^^;). Otherwise the pain isn't THAT bad, only annoying, because it keeps coming and then going away without an obvious reason. First I thought it was the appendix, but my other doctor said that would be different. :shrug: I had an ultrasound a year ago, and nothing was visible there. The problem with endo is that it isn't always visible on an ultrasound, only when the scarring is already deep, or something like that.

So now I can only hope that my doctor finds out what it is. ^^; Any diagnosis would be better than "I have no clue". ^^;
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Tetiel Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
Oh... hmmm I'm actually having the same problem. I don't currently have health care, but it's the same pain I had with my cyst except worse since I can't get it looked at or removed and I just feel it's growing bigger ^^; It's only been happening to me since March, though. But yeah, with me it gets especially bad near my period and it's like something's swelling and hitting a nerve since I feel it on my thigh and back as well. Most of the time, it's just a dull ache and I don't notice it much.

Out of curiosity, did they give you an external or internal ultrasound? Sometimes they can't see anything if it's an external one for various reasons, though it is certainly much more comfortable and less embarrassing ^^; Anyways, I really hope you get an answer! After so many issues that you've had with your neck/shoulder/arm, you deserve a straight answer for once >_<
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Internal, my OB gyn only does external on pregnant ladies. XD (For whatever reason.) And yeah, I did find it a bit embarassing, since you know what that ultrasound-thingy looks like. XD
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Tetiel Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
Ahahaha I know xD The only reason why the technician tried was because it was a male and to do otherwise would force him to get a woman to stand in with him. I felt bad for him when it didn't work since it's pretty awkward.
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silver-eyes-blue Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
The worst thing about the internal ultrasound were the squishy sounds it kept making while my doctor (who is female, btw) kept turning it around to see different angles and corners, lol. XD
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VoltronZ1 Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2010  Student Writer
My god..... I hope you don't die of it.

May all of your friends and family help you, Ms. Silver.
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